I am really proud of myself. I am really proud of myself at this moment for two things: I had an intuitive feeling/insight, and I acted on it right then.
One of the big issues God talks about in Heavenletters™ is letting go of the past. It’s so easy to see the necessity of this in other people and not always so easy in ourselves. And even when we do see the need in ourselves, sometimes there is something in us that doesn’t want to let go.
Now, I do want to say that I have worked hard on letting go. I have let go of belongings from the past. Virtually entire households. The fact is we just can’t hold onto everything, not to precious things and not to precious memories and ideas as well.
While I was in Fairfield for a few days, at Jacqueline's gracious invitation, I stayed on the second floor of her house. She has an apartment up there that is not rented out. And she had also been generously letting me store some things up there. Papers, books, clothes. One reason I went to Fairfield was to clear out some of what I had stored and, on second thought, didn't need to keep. This really takes time, and I didn’t have much of it.
So, on this short visit I went through lots of papers, primarily fiction I had written years ago. I will tell you more about that later.
Years before Godwriting™ began, an outstanding man in Fairfield had done my birth chart. This was Siderean astrology, Eastern astrology. It's also called Jyotish. I had typed up what Allan had taped for me, two hours' worth at least.
I came across this typed copy of this session about my life. Allan had hit the nail on the head. He clarified and affirmed many things for me. And now, while reading the random parts I did, I was blown away.
My first thought as I read this chart of my life was: "Oh, wow, Heaven Admin will really like this."
Very soon, my inner voice said: "This is an old chart, Gloria. This isn't your chart any more. And you should toss it." Of course, I am not the same person then that I am now.
Without further ado, I tossed this fifty pages of so my life printed on an old dot.matrix printer.
You realize that this session was years before Godwriting had entered my life. Allan, the astrologer, had said I would do spiritual writing.
I said: "But I write fiction."
He said, "That may be, but you will do spiritual writing. It says it right here."
I didn't take this seriously. I just put the whole thought aside. Even after Godwriting had begun, I didn't remember what Allan had said until years later.
Certainly, what Allan said about Godwriting came true. I don't question the validity of anything he said, and, meeting with him was a very good thing for me. And yet, up on Jacqueline's second floor, when I spot-read a few parts of what Allan told me, it felt like putting on old musty clothes that had been kept in an attic for a long time. They were beautiful and pertinent once, but not so much now.
Tomorrow, I will tell you what else I remember from my spot-reading of what Allan had told me.
I'm so glad to be back to writing to you.