Here is a question from a fine gentleman who has been a long-time serious Heavenreader. He has written books, given seminars etc. You would probably know his name if he were okay with my using it.
His question was about Heavenletter #4309 Who Walks Across the Stage?, September 11, 2012.
You certainly do have say over your life, or do you? How much of your life is your free will? Even when you balk, are you the balker? How self-determining are you?
Here's the gentleman's question:
Dear Gloria, a very interesting message today! Beautifully written as always.
This particular message seems to take a different perspective than your previous messages about free will. Has there been some type of shift in your perspective lately, or do you see this one as somehow consistent with your other messages about free will. The previous messages seemed to indicate that we had extensive free will, whereas this one takes a different view.
To the best of my knowledge, Heavenletters™ are not from my perspective. I don’t initiate the topic. I sit with the intention to hear from God, and a first sentence comes and then it flows from then on. In every Heavenletter, God gives an angle or a sentence that is new to me, a surprise, and I love that.
At the same time, this does not mean that every theme in Heavenletters is new to me. This one about destiny and free will, although it may hold surprises for me, is something that I have increasingly wondered and pondered about.
A Heavenletter that appears today was written three months ago. It seems like a lifetime ago. I will go back and read it through right now and see what I recall or what pops up now. And thank you for including the entire Heavenletter here!
Okay, I just read over the Heavenletter. This isn’t the first time that God has called our lives fiction. I do recall that He has also spoken before about life as seen from a train. I’ll see if I can locate any of those.
One of the delights for me in this Heavenletter is the “perhaps perhaps…” Is God using a disclaimer? Or is He thinking to give this to us this way because a certainty would be too much for us all at once? Or does it not matter?
The idea of a watcher is not new to me. I had heard of it as witnessing. I also believe that I experience distance from my participation in my life. My life as I live it seems farther and farther from me. I feel bigger and smaller at the same time. The question of Who am I is not new, yet more and more, I also ask Where am I? I have to remind myself that I am in South Africa, yet I believe the question is greater than physical location.
If you go to this Heavenletter on the forum http://www.heavenletters.org/who-walks-across-the-stage.html you will see some comments. I love them, and your comment evokes a lot. It is so interesting and evocative. I would love it if you would post your comment on the forum. I remember you have some disinclination to do this.
Here are a few Heavenletters with the concept of our riding in a train rather than our steering our lives:
Blogreaders, at this point right now, when I look over this list of Heavenletters and reread the Heavenletters, I don't see why I chose them. Hmm, I don't see that they do deal with the question of free will vs. destiny. I'll leave them out here. I am sure there are such Heavenletters.
Anyway, here's the response from my friend:
Thanks for taking time to send such a beautiful response to my email. I enjoyed reading it and learning a little about your process in writing the Heavenletters. You are simply writing the words as they come through you, without concern about what you said before, what is consistent with previous messages, etc. I think that is wonderful!
Then I had to have the last word and wrote back:
Godwriting™ is the easiest thing in the world because God does it. If I had to personally think, it wouldn’t be Godwriting! If what God says, what I hear, has to fit in with what I know beforehand, or what I think I know , if, in other words, I judge what God says, I would be in my left brain rather than my right brain. The left brain is what is already known in the world. The right brain is the Unknown.
Obviously, I love talking about all this with you. It fills something for me.
I did forget to mention that when I do personal Godwriting, I do ask questions.
I’ve thought a lot about what you asked and what you said now about consistency. Cannot opposites both exist? Who says it has to be one way or the other? Why not 100% free choice and 100% destined?
I wonder what you think.