This morning I feel discouraged about the book, The Little Things, that I've been so enthused about, riding a high actually. All of a sudden, I crashed. Instead of purposeful, I started to feel the book is ego driven, and that I should be focusing on The Godwriting™ Book.
Please, don't anyone try to cheer me up! Everyone else is going through stuff, why shouldn't I? I'm entitled to aggravate as much as any one else! And, fortunately, God comes through, Here's what I wrote to God:
I’m discouraged about The Little Things book. Maybe that book is ego. Maybe I should be focusing on The Godwriting™ Book, yet I don’t feel the urge right now. The Little Things seems to have emerged. God, what would You like? You must know.
Here's what God said:
Always the message is to follow your heart. That’s all you need to know. Remember to stop thinking and just be. You well know that you don’t have to know how something is going to turn out, what it’s going to look like. Know this: The writing you are focusing on now is serving. This very process is serving. You don’t have to know how or when. No one is forcing you to write where your heart takes you. And no one is forcing you to leave where your heart takes you. You belong to write what you are writing now. You belong writing this until you are writing something else.
Then I told God the pressure I feel under and how I can't keep up with everything that needs to be done, and that Heaven Admin, too, has more to do than one person can do and how much help we need. I went on in an embarrassing way about how stretched I am and all the responsibility I have. I really laid it all out. And God answered.
Actually, He gave three satisfying messages, healing messages.
The responsibility for Heavenletters is Mine. Leave Heavenletters to Me. See what comes to you, beloved. Be patient and kind to all.
Meanwhile, what can you do but the best you can do? You are My very best, and I am not worried. Keep your intentions high and clear. Keep the big picture.
You want someone to come help with the website and all. You want an administrative assistant. You want someone to come get Heavenletters higher on the search engines. You want..you want... Think beyond what you want.
What you really want is everything of Heavenletters to be taken care of in a timely manner. What you really want is for My Will to be fulfilled, not yours. Just think a little bigger, yes?
Yes, God. Your Will, not mine. Of course. I’ve been thinking too small.
With God's responses, I felt as though I have been filled with sweet cream.
All is well.
This morning the Indian Ocean here at Palm Beach is very green. The sky is baby blue with white papery clouds. The ocean is sparkly and energetic. As the waves come closer to shore, there are three big white waves at a time that splash onto the shore.
Why do waves get white as they near shore, does anyone know?