Awakening

Yesterday's Heavenletter™, #3497, Awakening, struck a chord in me -- or pushed a button!

First of all, I like that this Heavenletter was entitled Awakening and not The Awakening.  The title The Awakening might imply a huge one-time event --  something like a graduation where you get your diploma. And now you're done, and you've got your degree!

And sometimes the expression Awakening is a more modest way of saying **ENLIGHTENMENT!!!**

I had my days when all I was seeking was ENLIGHTENMENT IN BRIGHT LIGHTS. I felt that when I would be favored with enlightenment (or gloriously achieve enlightenment all on my own) I would have arrived! I would be further along than ordinary mortals, and I would really be something. I would be able to take a deep breath and say, "Whoopee, I did it! HAHA." Sort of as if I would actually become a Hollywood star or Academy Award winner in the spiritual arena and now proudly walk down the red carpet. Ouch, I was so vain.

When God came into my life, that ambition faded. A little more ego chipped away -- about time! I was blessed when that ambition faded. Instead of thinking, "Hey, I want to be enlightened NOW, what's taking so long?" my thoughts turned more to,"Okay, God, what would You like me to do now?"

With Awakening and an earlier Heavenletter, #465, Then What, God put me in my place.

I still have to watch out. I have to be careful now that I don't think I'm terrific because enlightenment is no longer my prime goal, for I do catch myself thinking that I am on the right track while some others are still where I used to be.

It's really true that every Heavenletter is for me.