Body and ego
This is part 3 of a 3-part series. Oranges was first. Then Sharing. And now, Body and Ego.
I am beginning to see that selfishness is about body and ego. Selfishness is definitely on a lower plane. Selfish, our attention is on self-preservation, preservation of the little self, the self we call me, body and ego. Selfish, our attention is on our five senses and how we feel and how we think others value us.
Unselfish, our attention is on something more than our body and ego, on something more than our senses. Our attention is naturally directed to heart and soul. Unselfish, we come from Oneness. If not from Oneness, at least from our true desire to be a blessing on Earth.
The other night when Effendi said: “We do not go to bed with a full stomach and let our neighbor go to bed hungry. We do not keep the biggest piece of cake for ourselves. We do not serve ourselves first,” I told you I squirmed. I squirmed the whole night, and haven't stopped.
I have on occasion taken the biggest piece. I have even wrapped and hidden the last piece of something in the fridge. I have had opportunities to do something for someone that I chose not to do because it was inconvenient.
Of course, I have had my good moments too, but they are far and few in between.
Of course, with Heaven Admin and Effendi, it is easy to be generous, for they have shown the way. They give so much, who could possibly repay them?
I realize that I am generous only when I deign to be. I am generous when I think someone deserves my generosity. I pick and chose whom I will be generous with and when.
What prevents me from being generous all the time? My judgment. My self-righteous high-qualifying standards. My standard of generosity has been: "Do they deserve it? Are they generous first? How giving are they? Why should I be generous?" And so I withhold. So, I am self-satisfied and even smug.
I am aware of this now, and I am going to change. Now that I have seen more clearly, change has to follow. Hasn't God said that we act on how we perceive? I sure do perceive differently now, and no longer am I going to listen to my body and ego before my heart and soul.
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Very nice lesson, Gloria. We come to realize that when we put satisfaction of the soul before the satisfaction of ego/body, even the ego/body can find a satisfaction. I think that giving is nourishment for the physical. And of course selective generosity is only selfishness in disguise. Because every single being deserves generosity even if evidences seem to prove the contrary.
Gloria, could it be we have this backwards like so many things that make up our cultural lore? What is squirming? Why, it's what follows self-judgment. Without self-judgment, no squirming. Is it just (justified) self-judgment then? Does something like just self-judgment exist? It does not.
Ending our self-judgment we end our squirming and our judging others. It's not that when we are good we don't have to judge ourselves. It's that when we stop judging ourselves we get a chance to be as good as we naturally are.
Afraid to be me. It's frighteningly accurate, isn't it? But after the fright, how good to know that all is well after all.
Jochen, thank you for taking this to the next level. "Ending our self-judgment we end our squirming and our judging others.... when we stop judging ourselves we get a chance to be as good as we naturally are."
This morning I have been pondering about how to hear/speak about certain biblical stories (as in the parable of the rich man and Lazarus) in a way that is not just condemning but is blessing - and that frees us to shine out as the Light of God that in Oneness we are....I am seeing a way toward this now. Perhaps "Judge not that you be not judged" can be seen in this light too.
Does everyone know that mw -- she is an Episcopalian priest?
The posts here expand my thinking.
Well, I think the squirming is a signal that I need to get on the right track.
Yes, I must leave the past behind. I have to tell you I am not finding it easy to do that which I say I will.
I feel another blog entry coming on.
This must be a lingering ghost of the past. It is the a sentiment of the past. The one I see is beyond the ego and selfishness.
I have it from good authority that Gloria can have the biggest piece of cake. Gloria does good work in world and it is natural that rewards are showered on her.
Often the actions and results are in perfect natural order. It's the thoughts in between, before and after that are the schlep. Worse than the thoughts, is possession of the thoughts.
Possession of the thoughts is called judgment. Observation of the thoughts is progress, is expanded awareness. When there is judgment, the trickster is toiling. When there is expanded awareness, the heart is at play.
Judgement, as One says it so well, is the trickster. Stop judging, Is there Judgement In Heaven??? No, so why use it here. Gloria you are the most giving person I have met, so enjoy life as it comes with the biggest piece of cake etc. One and a lot of others would have taken the smaller one anyway, so again as One said," you deserve it." A lot of the things you metioned Gloria most of us have done the same. I do not feel Guilty anymore if I go to the fridge and get something nice like an extra piece of choclate, So what? I deserve it. If not,I will gain some weight,which make me more cuddly. Love and enjoy live because it is so beautiful you can even pick the biggest piece of Cake LOve to all Jack
I think it is the ego who wants to be considered good and fixes standards for goodness. God asks just for awareness of Love. We will then give and receive with grace and spontaneity, seeing there is no difference between the two. Of course, being aware of our little self in action helps the process.
Gloria, do you think God cares if you hide something away in the fridge, or take the biggest piece of cake?
Maybe that is your inner child wanting the biggest! Yes, like a ghost from the past. We all have those, and they come out every once in a while.
One did say it perfectly. His words will remain with me.
"The thoughts in between, before and after.."
And from what everyone else has said as well, your actions ares of pure of heart.
Think of all the lives that have been changed by you accepting this role of making sure Heavenletters are sent out every single day, for all of us to read. You might say God chose you. But Gloria, you had to accept the challenge, or we all wouldn't even be discussing "judgement."
And we all agree with One, when he says he has it on good authority that you can have the biggest piece of cake.
Beloved All, you are so gracious and kind.
I think selfishness is selfishness. It is one thing when I am ignorant, and another when I see more clearly.
When Heavenletters came to me, it wasn't a challenge. It was a gift. I scooped it up. I was hungry for it. I did it for myself, beloved Lynda. I couldn't have said no nor did it occur to me. And Heavenletters aren't for me to hold on to. They're not mine to keep. So sharing them is easy. It would be very hard, impossible not to.
A blog entry may be coming up about my discovering that being unselfish isn't so easy as I thought when I seem to want my own way.
God bless you all.
I love it when you selfishly love your Self. You are so lovable, cake and all. Love, Barbara
I went to a gathering the other day and we listeed to Aranuth a entity from onother realm The lesson was about service and who we serve I knew before hand what was comming We are here to serve ourselves if interested I will put the channelig up as I was most impressed And i expect it to be on my computer today or tomorrow. Anyone interested, send me your email Love to all and service to self Love Jack