Emilia and I both don't understand Godwriting
Emilia wrote:
I read all you have to say about Godwriting, but still I do not understand. I suppose it is my left brain, or my cleverness or maybe my different expectations. Couldn’t be the game of life less puzzling?
Beloved Emilia! I do not understand Godwriting either! How can it be? How can it be that I sit down, and Godwriting comes? How did this happen to me? How does it happen to anyone? How does God do it?!!!!
I am amazed every time. It's like I have to pinch myself. Do I really sit down and God really really whispers to me? Why would He? Why would He bother with me? It's very humbling. I don't even know if God chose me. Did He, or did I chose myself? Did He ask me, or did I ask Him? All I do know is that Godwriting comes.
I continually ask myself: How can it be that there is a Godwriting workshop, and in the workshop, people who probably don't believe they will be able to Godwrite suddenly or slowly start Godwriting!
So, Emilia, not only is it that I don't know how Godwriting happens, I also don't know how to TEACH it! I do not teach it! I do not pretend to teach it. No one can teach it. Yet a person can "learn" how. I have seen it. I have seen it in every workshop. People do start Godwriting.
I don't even know how I ever had the gall to think I could give workshops. How it happened is that a Heavenreader who lives where I do called me up on the phone. She said plaintively: "Gloria, will you teach me how to Godwrite?" I didn't know how to say no to her, so I said, "Yes."
So my friend came over. I crossed my fingers and held my breath. I don't know what I did, or what I said, but in about fifteen minutes, she was Godwriting.
The most I can personally do is set a climate for Godwriting, a safe place with good people who share the same desire to come closer to God. And then, by golly, there is a certain moment when God comes in and makes it happen.
But I do not want to imply that there is a Grand Moment when Godwriting happens or even a definitive moment. It isn't that a new Godwriter has lightning flashes and thunderbolts of Godwriting. A new Godwriter may not even be aware that he is Godwriting. He, or she, may be mumbling along, as it were, and feel all the writing is from himself. He doesn't know he has been Godwriting. Then, when he starts to read his Godwriting out loud to the rest of us, he may find that he is unable to read outloud at all because he has suddenly started crying and can't stop. Until he started reading out loud, he had no idea of the heart of the words that he had written down.
Of course, it doesn't always happen like this either.
He may read his Godwriting out loud and still not think it's anything special. What can happen is that other people in the workshop are in awe at what the person reads out loud. The other people are touched deeply by the words read aloud and are sure they are hearing Godwriting. They all feel it is Godwriting.
Sometimes the person still isn't sure. That's okay too. I was unsure for about a year.
I will continue this tomorrow.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, dear Emilia.
Comments
I started to place a comment on the blog entry entitled: “Chuck asks a question”, but then I noticed this blog and I decided to place my comment here since much of what I am going to say is pertinent to Emilia’s question and Gloria’s answer, even though I wrote it prior to reading this blog.
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Thanks, Gloria, for your answers to my questions. This is fascinating! It seems to me that Nov 17th, 2000 was like both a graduation and an anointing for you. I re-read HL # 1 after your blog entry today, it is so beautiful and seems to contain much more than when I first read it just a couple months ago. The words haven’t changed, I guess I must have……..and the change feels wonderful, I might add!
Perhaps I should say more about my comment on you graduating, Gloria. It seems you and God have arrived at a mutual agreement that you will play a very specific role in God’s plan concerning Heavenletters. I come to this conclusion partly through my own experience. When I sit down and write questions for God, I get answers that are often emotionally moving for me, sometimes startling and always very helpful. I am quite certain that many of the responses totally transcend my usual reasoning and conscious processes. I suspect this is no different than others who are doing what we choose to call “Godwriting.” But, when I and ask or wait for God to address any topics He might like to address – I get nothing. Nothing except a feeling that God wants to hear what is on my mind and He will be happy to answer any questions I might raise.
I’m not completely sure my reasoning is sound, here, but what I conclude is that you, Gloria, are fulfilling a very specific role that the rest of us are not called to.
I would like to add one other observation to this. It seems to me that Godwriting is a transitional step for us. If I am getting an accurate glimpse of what is going in the big picture, we human beings are groping (with God’s help and encouragement) towards what will eventually be a pure process of each of us seeing the world through God’s Eyes and being completely aware of His Will. Eventually, there will be billions of us “Godwriting” without any pens or even without the use of words. We will be living out God’s Will on earth.
In this vision, Godwriting is a very important step. This is an enchanting and awesome process! I am so thankful that I am living at this place and at this time so I have the thrill of a front row seat……..Chuck
Well, dear Chuck, you always prompt me to have many things to say.
Of course, it is not that everyone is supposed to write down and send out a general Heavenletter(tm) every day. However, I personally do not see that because it is not everyone's mission to write down a Heavenletter precludes any of us from having all of God in every way. I am not saying it is better that we don't ask questions. I am trying to say that I think reasoning and coming to a conclusion may limit us. Who says I can and you can't?
I am not in love with reasoning. Reasoning is left brain logical etc. I believe God has said left brain is built on what is already known. There is a whole big seemingly Unknown out there that we want to be open to. Didn't we just have a Heavenletter that tells us there are no limits. :)
Certainly all the personal dialogue with God I had served a purpose. Maybe a lot of "stuff" had to come out before I could Godwrite without asking questions. Maybe it's like in real life where we just have to talk and finish saying what is on our minds before we can listen to what someone else has to say. Maybe there is an asking personal questions stage for everyone. Maybe, maybe not.
I think we just can't second-guess God!
Love you, Gloria
Gloria, hon, I really appreciate you taking the time to respond to my ideas with such insight and care. You really are a gift to us in all that you do. I trust that when I prompt you to have many things to say that this is a good thing. You also prompt me to have many things to say. The supportive nature of your attitude and the rest of this forum encourages me to get beyond my natural reticence to put my private ideas out into a public forum.
I want to respond to your comments about reasoning, you said: “I am not in love with reasoning. Reasoning is left brain logical etc. I believe God has said left brain is built on what already is known. There is a whole big seemingly Unknown out there that we want to be open to. Didn’t we just have a Heavenletter that tells us that here are no limits. :-)”
Certainly, our faculty of reasoning deals with our past and the letters have made it clear this is a major source of the limits we place on ourselves. This seems to be the source of much of the problems we see in the world. I would inject a word of caution, though, lest we develop a negative attitude toward a natural and important part of our own mind. Our ability to reason plays an essential part in our lives, it was designed into our mind for important purposes. I would liken it to nuclear energy, highly dangerous and potentially destructive, yet quite helpful if we use it correctly. Reasoning has a place, but it has run rampant in the world. Its place is in service to the heart. The heart must lead. The hard thing for me is to know is when reasoning is leading (ego) or my heart is leading with my ideas rightfully supporting my loving intent.
I can tell you that my feeling in writing my comment above was loving and supportive or I would not have posted it. Is it loving wishful thinking? Who knows, I have no answer for that. :-)
Thanks, again, Gloria for all your help……Chuck
Of course, dear, we have our minds to use. In Western society, we use our left brain so much, probably over-use. The left brain can't answer right-brain questions. My slant is that questions of God, Godwriting(tm) etc. are right-brain questions.
I see Godwriting(tm) as more of something we discover and not something to be figured out.
I love how you make me think of things to say. Through your stimulus, I discover where I stand!
Love, Gloria
I think we are in complete agreement om this, the right brain should be leading :)
Gloria, our discussion about reasoning and left brain approaches to life brought to mind a story some may find interesting.
I have a friend who feels she has personal two-way conversations with God on a regular basis. She often spends time in the woods or sitting under a favorite tree where she communes with Him. As far as I know, I am the only one she has shared her convictions with due to her belief that others would look down on her with condescending disdain and would believe she is delusional.
A few years ago, one of the conversations she passed on to me was quite remarkable. Unknown to her, I had just returned from a trip out of state which I had to drive alone. I had taken the opportunity during the long, boring drive to meditate on a difficult decision in my life. At the end of the trip, I turned the question over to God and asked for His advice, but I didn’t sense any answer. During my conversation with my friend the next day, she shared with me that God had told her I had asked Him a question while I was driving the day before. This got my attention. Then she shared what God had told her about the nature of my question, which was 100% accurate. She then gave God’s answer which she said He told her to tell me. The answer was just what I was looking for and turned out to be the perfect solution to my dilemma. My friend and I had not previously discussed my question or my trip. What are the chances she would come up with all this at random? While I was previously inclined to believe her about her conversations with the Big Guy, after this I was convinced!
Since then, she has shared with me many of her discussions with God, but one of messages might be of particular interest to others in its pertinence to our discussion, here. One day, a year or so ago, she said God had told her something to the effect that He would answer more of my questions if he could just get a word in edgewise. He was specific that my inner chatter usually gets in the way. I think this supports your point, Gloria, too much left brain!
Love and hugs to all….Chuck
In my experience, "too much" of anything induces a silent increase of power in whatever it is that gets temporarily diminished or suppressed. Any too-much generates its opposite, perhaps even, in the long run, making it strong enough for a breakthrough that might not be possible otherwise. But the age of seeming mutually exclusive or even warring opposites is drawing to a close. Intention doesn't care which half of your brain is firing.
Please forgive me if I come across as a know-it-all. I, myself, have no tolerance when people do that.
When it comes to Godwriting(tm), I am fervent. When I talk about right brain/left brain, I am speaking of brain dominance not in general terms, but specific to Godwriting.
I will go as far as to say: The left brain is a barrier to Godwriting. I will go as far as to say: You can't Godwrite(tm) until you put the left brain on the back burner and let the right brain take precedence.
Even then, of course, we are not totally without left brain, or, as I understand it, we would not be able to write or even know the words.
This is not a contest between the two hemispheres of the brain. One side excels in some things. The other side excels in other things.
Beloved Chuck, it's not that we "should" anything. It's what works. And later I will say more about your friend's getting an answer for you.
And, beloved Jochen, thank you always for both sides of your brain! :)
I'm so glad we are going with the September way for the Godwriting Tour. This gives me enough time to develop the special Godwriting Pen ™ that will never fail and continue serving through severe Thunderbolts of Godwriting :)
Ah, the special Godwriting™ Pen™! You think of everything! Of course, even a pencil works! A computer! A stick in sand! (but we won't tell anyone.)
Beloved One, we could dress up a common cheapo Bic pen; you could make a great infomercial about it; it would come with a guarantee, and we could make a fortune selling two for the price of one! Say, it could be battery-operated and create the illusion of thunderbolts and lightning. You've got something here! :)