Helen Schucman
I feel sorry for Helen Schucman. She was the scribe for A Course in Miracles. What a beautiful testament to God she wrote down.
From what I have read, she did it reluctantly. Can you imagine being reluctant to write down A Course in Miracles!
But that is not why I feel sorry for her. I’m am sure she got over that reluctance. In any case, she wrote with alacrity.
The reason I feel sorry for her is because, one day, her task was done. The book was written. The last word had been given and noted. How did Helen Schucman live without hearing a new word each and every day from that inalterable Source of All Good?
May I never know how to deal with that.
I don’t want to ever know what it would be like without a word from God every morning, or tomorrow morning, or even one morning. I’ve got to have it.
I was lost my whole life, and then Heavenletters appeared, and I was found, or I found myself. I require God’s Presence every morning. God does not require Me. He requires nothing but to give. He gave me Himself. He gave me Himself in words. He spoke to me. I heard Him. And I cannot get His words out of my head, and He has included Himself in my heart.
It is not that I require proof of God. He proved Himself long ago. He needs no proof anyway. But I do require hearing from Him. At least, I hunger hearing from Him. I have been too alone my whole life to ever want to be lonely again or to miss one word of His, one intonation, one blessing, one lifting of my heart. May I never know what it is to be without one syllable of His.
And so I make an appointment every morning, and God is waiting for me. He never misses. He always shows up. He never says he has something better to do.
And so may I always show up.
And in my last breath, may I be writing down what God says, and then no one can ever have a reason to feel sorry for me.
Comments
Not to worry - as long as you're listening, God will be speaking.
May I never know how to deal with you not hearing from the Divine either. :) Even though the Heavenletter archive is like a Bible, it still needs to be a whole lot thicker before it's done!!! :)
I'm with you, may it never be done. I don't know how I would live my life without the ongoing connection and conversation.
I just wanted to comment about Today's Heaven Letter.
It just so perfectly describes things.
I guess I am blessed to see so many things in the everyday parts of my life as just miraculous. All of it seems such an amazing miracle to me. Watching the trees bud and then burst into leaf, grass and flowers pushing their way up through the earth to grow and bloom. Awesome! What could be more miraculous than that. Certainly there are the other things as well. A friend called today to tell me she finally Got It! She finally realized that she could let go of some old stuff holding her back and could now move forward. That's miraculous to me. Especially since some of us close to her have been trying to assist her in seeing how this was blocking her for many years now.
I love the miracles! They are everywhere in my life. I have a hunch they are there in everyones life as well. Maybe we just need to take a moment to see them and be awed and grateful that they are there.
Hugs and love to all
Shirl
One of the nicest Miracles for me is the early morning Heaven Letter. Thank you God and Gloria. Love to all. Jack
What a miracle -- the hearts and consciousness of all who post here. Very beautiful. Much appreciated. Thanks.
Dearest Gloria,
you really touched my heart. Yes, you have found God and He is giving Himself totally to you in a wonderful loving way. You are His most dear child, and He showers all His infinite Love and Grace on you, each morning, each moment, each heartbeat of yours.
I thank God with all my heart for the wonderful gift He is bestowing on all of us. God will always whisper to you dear Angel, He knows your heart!!!
All my love
I agree the comment made about Course in miracles i was reading it at the weekend and had not gone to church in the morning doubting a bit like Doubting Thomas... Then i read in the course in miracles that God is not whole when we are not present. Well then that was a message i Could not exactly ignore and went to church in the evening... well a miracle i like to think so.. Luv Karen
Hey Gloria,
when you can find the time, please respond to emails I occasionaly send - I cannot afford the time to wade thru the blog material.
Thanks - Wm
NB: A website or URL is not the same as an email address.
Hi! Gloria,
I love your Heaven Letters and have made a special folder for each one I run off. I am not always able to read from the screen, so I can keep the papy copy to read when I am able and they always speak to me and uplfit me and they feel so in sync. with my journey which I love. I just get such a lift when from variuos sources the same message comes to me and I know that sometimes I miss many because my concentration is poor with my dis-ease. But I know this path I have chosen and I am blessed to have so many loving friends of the Heart to help me through so much darkness and pain. thank you from my sweetheart.
With regards to your comment about Helen Schucman,
I thought it rather odd that you should feel sorry for Helen Schucman. I am sure she heard God's voice even after ACIM was over. She did not reveal how she truly felt until after her 'passing', when "The Gifts of God" poetry book was published. If you read these you will know that she did indeed have a very deep love and sacred relationship with Jesus and her poems reveal this in a most beautiful form. The last 'poem' is blank verse and it is stunningly beautiful, lifting me up to the gates of Heaven. To read these poems is to know that she had a deep love and was able to express so creatively in her poems. She did not want it to be published for she had always kept her feelings hidden, maybe feeling that her 'life's work' ACIM, was so important that she held back her personal feelings from the world until she went Home. We are blessed that she gave permission when she left her body, they could be published.
I love her for what she has shared with the Sonship and I feel the deepest gratitude to her for her holy work.
Blessings of Love, Light and Harmony
Kate Little
NAMASTE, ANGELS AND MIRACLES
Dearest Wm,
I totally understand how you feel.
Your forwards have reached me, dear one. I do not know how to possibly respond to them. If you knew how many emails come to my inbox and how many are forwards, you would know, no matter how wonderful they are, and no matter how much I would like to, I can't possibly respond to them. It hurts my heart not to, dear Wm.
Please know that it is not unusual for me to work a twelve-hour day (if you can call it work!) Sometimes sixteen-hours, and there is much that is undone. There are a 5,000 subscribers, and the numbers grow every day. I am enormously grateful for every subscriber, and if there were some way I could always respond, I would.
One of my favorite things is answering email. Maybe sometime when there is isn't so much else that simply has to be done,, once again I will be able to.
The only solution I know presently is to request that forwards not be sent to me, and that everyone post what would ordinarily be an email on the blog or on the forum. Whenever possible I will answer. In every case, I will read what is posted.
Just so anyone reading this knows, Wm is a great spiritual minister, has helped people marvelously, We sat beside each other on a plane from Denver to the Cedar Rapids Airport, and I learned so much from him.
Wm,God bless you.
I send you all my love,
Gloria
P.S. Wm, Heavenletters are taken down now over two weeks before they are sent out. Heavenletters seem to be for everyone. So many people have the experience of synchronicity, and I think we are all seeing more synchronicity in our lives. I have nothing in mind when I receive a Heavenletter. To the best of my knowledge, the words I am blessed to receive are not based on any specific individual. And when we read them, we take what is meaningful for us. Thanks, Wm.
This is for Kate.
Dear One, thank you so much for sharing your sweet heart on this blog.
There is so much I would like to say in response to you.
First of all, I need to be more careful in what I say because I tend to exaggerate. Kate, I don't really feel sorry for Helen Schucman. I would feel sorry for MYSELF if there were ever a day that I did not ask for and receive a love letter from God. For me, for whatever reaons, I have to have it in writing!
I admire Helen Schucman, and I know she was blessed.
I also know I am blessed. If in my life, I had only one Heavenletter from God, I would know myself as fortunate.
Still, I am greedy and always want more.
You told me things about Helen Schucman that I did not know. I wish I could have known her.
Kate, I am so sorry that you have an illness and have pain. If you had not said so, I never would have known, for your words are sweet and uplifting.
The nice things you said about Heavenletters -- may we excerpt some of your words for Reader Comments on the Heaven web site?
And we would also ask you for a candid photo to go with it. We would be thrilled to have your permission, dear Kate.
Thank you so much for posting here, beautiful heart.
With love and blessings,
Gloria
Beloved Gloria,
Thank you for such a lovely reply. I would be delighted to have you use whatever you like from my letter. My son tried to paste a photo on this comment box, but after a number of tries, no luck.
Should I just send you an ordinary e-mail with my photo?
Thank you once again for you holy work. I am blessed to have such a friend of the Heart.
Love, Light and Harmony
Kate
NAMASTE, ANGELS AND MIRACLES
Hi! Beloved Gloria,
Not sure if my last one got through. For it gave me a message calling my a cow-boy, made me smile. So I am trying for the second time.
Wanted to say thank you for your lovely reply and that I would be delighted for you to use whatever you choose from my comments. I am honoured by your request.
I tried to past onto this comment box, but after numerous tries have given up. Can I just send you a photo by e-mail?
Thank you for your holy work. I am blessed to have such a friend of the Heart.
Love, Light and Harmony
Kate xx
NAMASTE, ANGELS AND MIRACLES
Thank you, dear Kate.
I don't know how to add pictures here either! The ones that appear in a blog entry -- well, Khanyi Media has to put them up for me.
Yes, of course, if you will send photo as an attachment, that would be perfect.
I'm looking forward. And thank you again for your generous words and permission.
With love and blessings,
Gloria XXXXXOOOOO
I believe this Helen did heard a voice in did but, I think that all that we need is in the Bible.
May God bless you.
I am so jealous of you all. I seem to have lost all my faith. One day I have a sort of epiphanic moment in which everything makes sense and the next I keep thinking that life here is all there is, and then despair follows. I wonder whether I am forcing myself to believe in something because the alternative would be too painful. I am so utterly lost.
Beloved Maggie, first thing, would you like the energy and upliftment of a Heavenletter a day? Say Yes! Tell me, and I will add you.
We would love to have you.
With blessings and love,
Gloria
Yes, please. Anything that can help. I'm so tired.
Thank you.
Beloved Maggie, yes, now you are subscribed to Heavenletters. Please let us hear from you often!
Oh, and, Maggie, please know you are not the only one who eyperiences this uncomfortable feeling of "forcing myself to believe..." There are also moments of truly believing what you most deeply long to believe, moments of knowing that your deepest longing is, in fact, reality. Those moments will become more frequent.
Maggie, welcome. Like Jochen stated, you are certainly not alone in 'forcing myself to believe.' It helped me when someone taught me the "fake it 'till you make it" concept. Sort of believe you believe and then, without even knowing when it began, you DO believe ...
Thank you Gloria, Jochen and Pam... I suppose I need to TRUST. I'll follow your advice. Tons of love and we'll keep in touch.
To be tired and not believing in anything, what a good premise. Now something may come.
Well, Emilia. I don't know about that. I really do hope something may come, but I have another terrible despair attack yesterday, a feeling of emptiness, of loneliness, even if I am completely surrounded by love. I should be happy but I feel so empty. It's so painful.
Sorry, I meant I HAD another terrible attack yesterday. I suppose the use of the present tense gives me away since it seems to be my dominant mood lately...
Very sorry, they most probably are ego's attacks.
Dearest Maggie,
tons of love and hugs to you. I join you in many ways, kind emotional roller coaster. being tired is ok I think, because when I am really tired and worn out I surrender and I say to God "Ok, I can't do this, can you help me ?"
more love
Berit
If God exists, why doesn't he give me a moment respite? It seems that whenever I start been calmer, a blow happens. On January 2nd I was going back home in a totally calm, uplifting mood, only to find that one of my dogs was missing. I am totally devastated, praying to no avail. Everybody tells me to keep the faith. I don't seem to have any left. I told Him I've learnt the lesson but please, send her back to me. Why doesn't He listen???
I think He has been trying to answer you.
Through Heavenletters, maybe. Please listen, He says.
Thanks, Emilia, but I don't understand. So, His answer is causing me more pain?
It doesn't work that way.
I suppose it doesn't, but then, how does it work? I'm utterly lost! I know God works in mysterious ways, but it shouldn't be so difficult to get to see what He's aiming at. Truly, He is not making things easier for me and I'm scared of how much more difficult they could be.
Dear Maggie, I'm totally with you, feeling utterly lost again and again myself, not understanding why I have to wrestle with all these unnecessary difficulties. Very slowly, much too slowly, things seem to be changing for the better, but it is hard for me to say anything because we are all so different and the advice wo offer ist usually for ourselves...
But one thing I believe is important to note is that God frequently emphasizes that He never makes it difficult for us. "I never test you" is what He says in so many ways. Obviously, this testing thing is part of an ancient God image that is plainly wrong.
Maggie, have you ever considered asking God a personal question through Gloria? Do you even know of the possibility to do so? If you go to the Heavenletters web site, you will find "Ask God" on the right margin. Click it, and you will get instructions on how to do it. I did it twice, and I can tell you that God's responses will be in my heart forever. I believe they are working on me every single day.
If you would like to read examples of other people asking God personal questions, you can find several on this page. Look on the right margin under "Topics". It's the last item there, "Your Personal Questions to God".
Maggie, it is difficult to give any advice to onother person. But since you have asked, in some way, I take the liberty to tell you what I feel, I mean my intuition, my personal little understanding of your situation, please accept it.
You are too self-centered, focused on yourself and thus at the mercy of your own ego. You can ask God a question, as Jochen suggests, but first you should be willing to listen to what come from outside of your mind. Are you? Your mind is telling you a lot of nonsenses, you know it and you play with it. Yes, you take some pleausure in this game, we often like to indulge in suffering.
You will excuse me for my plain speaking, but you asked how does it work and my answer is that it starts by looking elesewhere.
Emilia,
I absolutely agree with you in that, for some reason, a part of me takes some pleasure in this suffering since otherwise I wouldn't be so miserable, while fighting against it. The problem is that I am not sure the answer comes from outside. Somehow I feel that I have to fix whatever is wrong within myself and then I can begin to trust again. I am truly trapped in the games of my mind and the most awful thing is that I allow it to take control of me, completely so there is nothing to excuse in your plain speaking since I absolutely agree with you. Johen, thanks a lot for your advice but, at this moment, I don't think it would help, since I would question the authority speaking those words. Don't take me wrong, one part of me does, otherwise why would I be here reading and writing?, but the others questions absolutely every tiny little thing. It is that which I have to stop, I know it but somehow I cannot do it. The only "elsewhere" I can think of looking in is therapy. I need to fix whatever is wrong with me that keeps torturing me and then I'm sure I'd be able to enjoy much more everything, not only these Heaven Letters, which are a balm but only for a few minutes after having read them. Thanks for your help, a million times.
I understand, Maggie. I don't want to talk you into anything, but I don't recommend waiting until you feel ready either. This sentiment may turn out to be another trick. On the other hand, it may not – only you know.
In my first letter to God (which you can read in the place I told you), I even told God quite openly I was not going to believe Him. And the answer I got went past my defences so effortlessly.....
Maggie, dear, what can we do to find your missing dog?
Since Heavenletters give a balm for a few minutes after you read them, is it possible you could read them more often? Can you send them to friends of yours? Anything to keep them alive in you, sweetheart.
Do you receive Heavenletters every day?
I also have to commend you for your openness to all the fine people here who want you to be happy. I love their honesty and compassion, and I love your openness.
God bless you.
With love, Gloria
Gloria, Jochen, Emilia. What can I say? I feel you so close to me even though we have never met. I do receive Heaven Letters every day, but lately I have been so angry and desperate that I don't read them every day, even though they soothe me. I'll not only read them but try to re-read them. Thanks for being there.
Gloria, you ask me what can you do to find my missing Brontë. Since you truly have the faith I'm trying to build, I would be most grateful if you prayed for her safe return. Thanks a million.
Dear dear Maggie, I never do prayers for people. I am not sure I know how to pray! Besides that, I have the impression from God in Heavenletters that we don't need anyone to intercede for us. That's my understanding.
I wonder how you feel about thanking God for taking care of beloved Bronte, for making her safe and happy wherever she is, and, if possible, to return her to you. My feeling is that the focus has to be on Bronte's well-being.
I know how hard it is to lose our beloved animal friends. I could tell you some stories. In fact, there are some blogs here about that.
Darling, what are you doing on a practical level?
Maggie, there is something else you say that I would like to respond to. You say I have faith. I don't think I have faith, dear one. What I do have is an everyday experience with God. Every day He gives me a Heavenletter. So long as I sit to write, He gives me a Heavenletter. Sometimes He bursts in even when I don't sit down to write. I may have already written one, and He urges me to write down another.
I can say that I have faith that God knows what He is doing, even when I can't see the value of it like why there is pain and cruelty and all the things we don't understand very much. What I do have is love for God and the feeling of His love for me and for all of us. I don't have faith the way faith is described. This camaraderie with God came late in my life. That this could happen to me makes me believe in miracles.
I also think that you may be here for us!
Maggie, please look at the following blog and the comments:
http://www.godwriting.org/godwriting/nobody-in-our-family-broken-bones.h...
You are so lucky, Gloria. No matter what I do, I remain in darkness. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I feel guilty, selfish, drowning in pain instead of celebrating all the things I have to be grateful for. One part of me tells me how grateful I should be, the other doesn't allow it. Oh for a miracle!
How can I be here for you?
Beloved Maggie, maybe you're trying too hard. Maybe stop trying!
Here you are, a sweet soul, wanting to be more, and finding yourself falling short.
It seems to me that you have been growing leaps and bounds!
And look at those lovely words from you: "How can I be here for you?" Wow, those are powerful words. Are those words not a miracle, Maggie?
I had meant that your questioning and your hurting heart were to help us grow, that perhaps you were here to help us grow.
Now you have taken it a notch higher! Okay, Maggie, what would you like to do for Heavenletters?!!! What do you like to do? What would give you some happiness to do? Where do you live?
I have to learn to trust and learn to flow, Gloria. I think you may be right in that I'm trying too hard. I feel like a toddler.
As for what I would like to do for Heavenletters, I have absolutely no idea. I live in Spain, I am a university lecturer (I teach English Literature). I love animals with my entire heart, they are members of my family. I love reading, listening to music and writing... so if you think I can be useful in some way... I'm here for you.
I'll be abroad in a conference for a whole week so I'll check this blog on my return.
God bless you, Gloria. Thanks for your words
Oh, yes, I know you can be of help!
Beloved Maggie, I don't think you have to learn anything! I think you are already flowing, dear one, and I kinda think you have more trust than you give yourself credit for.
As for your feeling like a toddler -- I AM a toddler!
Are you from Spain?
What are some of the works you teach your classes?
Loving you,
Gloria
I wish I could share your views on me, Gloria. I feel so stuck and numb.
Yes, I am from Spain. This year I'm teaching Medieval and Renaissance Literature as well as a course on Drama, from the Middle Ages to the 20th century. I've also taught in the past Romantic poetry and Victorian novel.
Tons of love.
Maggie
Beloved Maggie, I think you're going to be just fine!