I love spontaneous
I love spontaneous.
With Heaven News, for instance, when I think along the lines of: "I'd better do Heaven News," or, "It's time to put another Heaven News together" and I attempt to do it, it takes effort. Kind of like the sorting and packing I'm doing these days.
I used to think that deadlines were good for me because, with a deadline, I would have to focus and get it done. Yes, that's true, yet I'm thinking now that that there is another side to that.
With Heaven News, when I don't tell myself I've got to do it, must do it, better do it, etc. all of a sudden, a day arrives when I'm irresistibly drawn to doing Heaven News, and it's fun.
Just so you know, every day I check my draft copy of Heaven News. I add countries and states as they come in, and when there's something newsworthy, I add a note of it right then. But putting it altogether in a flow and making sure details are correct, that's what I call putting Heaven News together, and that takes some solid focus, time, and attention.
I find there comes a day when it's not even that I think: "Okay, I will do Heaven News today." It's more like I find that I am eager to put Heaven News together, and I'm already doing it, sort of like riding a horse. Away we go!
Then Heaven News is all done before I know it. And, when it's all done, I'm almost disappointed because working on it was exactly where I was and what I wanted to do.
So, I have come to the conclusion that I just want to do what I want to do when I want to do it. When I am eager to get my hands on something, then it's easy, and, yes, I like easy. Let's call it spontaneous.
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Dear Gloria, could it be that at those times when we want to do something, one could say that resistance to it is nil? Resistance to be such a stopper. Almost the opposite of "I want to do it". Resistance shouts "I Don't want to". I aspire to letting go of resistance - whenever I can (sometimes I just want to be grumpy and cling to "I don't want to", at which times I get to play the martyr and be unhappy) Gliding down the river is a lot easier and more fun than trying to paddle upstream. I'm turning my canoe around! Heaven help me.
Yes, absolutely, resistance is nil.
But how come there is no resistance and simply joy to do it on one day and not another day?
In my case, anyway, I can't will the resistance away. I always have the intention to do everything for Heavenletters™. Maybe my conscious mind just doesn't know when it's ready to be done!
There just seems to be a time when the tide is right, and, before I know it, I'm paddling my canoe!
How I love your posting, Barbie.