More from Nancy, GP in London

 You know, the questions that people write to God, are a privilege to read. Reading what people write from the simplicity of their hearts is worth gold. There is something that, when we write to God, we can only be bare-boned honest.  We don't put on any pretense. We don't find ourselves smart. We find ourselves writing what we're thinking about, and before we know it, we have written down our Truth. What an offering to God that is!

And every day we can do this. We can even do this without thought of Godwriting.  Sometimes the question is enough in that it speaks the person's heart so beautifully.

Today we have Nancywriting, and it is beautiful and sweet and true. And, it is followed by God's answer. Nancy's first question appeared in this blog the day before yesterday, and here is her next question written a few months later:

8-18-08

Nancy to God:

Dear God,

I really want to check into Your heart with my  thoughts and feelings, as I feel through Heavenletters and prayer that I am coming closer to You every day.

After reading the HL a couple of days ago when you said that in fact we don’t even have to pray or ask, I felt another door open to You [although I know of course you have no closed doors.]  I imagined then that if in the universe there are infinite possibilities for all of us and we don’t need to even ask, it’s perhaps like you are holding out to us a fan of a limitless deck of cards. "Pick one" you say ," whatever you like, I will be with you whatever you choose, and when you have chosen, know that I knew which one you wanted anyway and I have already started making the arrangements."

I choose peace of mind and health for myself and all others.

I realise I have been trying to do it on my own. I have been determined, and you know that, but you told me to be effortless and I don’t think I really understood how to do that. Perhaps that is coming clearer to me now, I just have to choose the card and trust that you know how to do it. What a relief if that is the case because my determination was exhausting me physically and emotionally, to the point where I had no choice but to hand it over to You. In choosing the card , I presume we do that with our imagination, and the feeling that we already have it, because in reality we do already have it --  we just have to choose it?

I read recently too in a HL something else that struck a chord with me. You said it makes no difference "... if you believe in Me or not.   I Am."

I have moved from a position of trying to trust and let go to the realisation that You Are and, what is more, You are the Truth.   Wrestling with doubt was just draining me and paining You, I expect.

I know you know that my desire is to help and heal others, and even though I have been very sick and tired, I have continued to work as  doctor [GP] because it gives me such pleasure, love and strength spiritually. However at the moment physically I am not strong enough to work. At first I felt cheated as though I were taking a step backwards, but, perhaps, that was Your way of telling me to heal myself first?

I had another thought the other day.  I thought perhaps cancer is just my route to You, maybe that was its message? Well, if it was, it's working, thanks! -- even though it's been the toughest call of my life. Someone once said God meets man on his highest endeavour.

Dear Father, I know this is not really one question, more like the ramblings of my heart at the moment, but this is how it comes to me. Please can you tell me if you think I am on the right track with my thinking or, if I am not, gently nudge me back on course.

All my love forever Nancyxxxxxxx

God to Nancy:

O, My beloved Forever Nancy,

Can you imagine what it is like to be God and have a loving daughter like you? I am God of the Highest all right, and you are right here with Me. You are so very close to Me. You thrill My heart. I am a worthy God in your eyes, and in fact I AM, and you are a daughter worthy of the name, God’s Child. Come, sit on My lap. Lean your dear head on My shoulder. There, there, beloved Nancy. Let Me take all your cares. Let Me remove lines from your forehead. Rest your worries at My feet. Here, let Me remove worries from you as I might your shoes.

What can the matter be when you love Me and I love you? Furthermore, you have trust in Me. It is like you have laid your heart on an altar to Me. I accept your loving heart, and I tuck it in Mine.  We are complete.

Your thinking is just fine, beloved Nancy, yet all the thinking in the world is next to nothing compared to the heart, and your heart – oh, my -- your dear heart shines above all.

The heart – your heart – gives and receives love. The mind questions and wants answers. It wants logic. It wants cause and effect whereas the heart says, “Okay, God, whatever you want.”

Please do not think that this illness of the body is something that belongs to you. Do not think it is something you caused or something I vested in you. Love and illness are far beyond reason. Let your thoughts go, beautiful Nancy. Whatever your question, My answer is: “I love you.” What more do you need to know?

As for your working, you do not know all the levels on which you work. The relative world is only one. Do you not know that you are healing the Universe? Do you not know you are a doctor of the soul? Do you not know that you serve great purpose?

You have chosen many cards, beloved, and yet you chose at My behest. You chose and you were chosen.

Instead of calling this illness by a name, call it life, beloved, life in the world. Life happened. Life comes in many colors, and this is just one of them. Let it not be a heartache. As best you can, let it not be a heartache.

Of course, you are on your way to Me. It has always been so. It is so for everyone alive on Earth. That is all that goes on. Everyone is running on their way to Me or walking. There is stumbling as well. What does it matter? I pick everyone up, and everyone is ever closer to Me in their awareness. In actuality, no one was or is ever apart from Me.

Yes, you are losing doubt. You are losing effort. You are surrendering to the love of the Universe and the love of Heaven.

You have never caused Me pain. I am not caused anything. You have given and give Me much joy. I know supreme joy. I know not pain. I understand your pain, but I do not know it. And now you will let go of mental anguish. You don’t need it.

Will you pour out your heart to Me often? Perhaps every day. Tell Me anything. Tell Me everything. Let Us sit down together and have a cup of tea, and you write out your heart to Me.

I am always here, and I am here for you.  Avail yourself of Our personal love.

Will you send Gloria a photo of you, for she yearns to know what an angel like you looks like.

You are okay, blessed Nancy. You are A-OK. You are My beloved child. What else is there to know?

With all My love in your eyes,

I AM God Who loves you with all His Heart.