My little petulance
Two common words have been running through my mind, and they are making all the difference to me. The two words are: personal importance. This is not a new expression. I'm sure I've heard it many times, and yet now the two words are like a banner running across my mind.
It has finally sunk into me that this is what ego amounts to. The personal importance I set on something is my ego justifying itself. What in the scheme of things has no importance at all, at the time, has all the importance in the world to me.
All the times in my life where I have been offended, earthshakingly offended, amounted to nothing at all. These times amounted to pique, nothing more. My little petulance.
I would like to give you two examples, one where I just naturally seemed to have moved on and one with what, I have to admit, I reacted with petulance and pique.
1. I got stood up at a cyber cafe!
I enjoyed myself anyway. I drank chai and people-watched.
2. I can't find my big cast iron frying pans!
I have unpacked everything, and they are gone. On the day I first couldn't find them anywhere, I was distraught. You would have thought it was the end of the world. You would have thought I couldn't live without them. After all, I had those well-seasoned frying pans for at least thirty years.
Now that the two words personal importance run through my mind, I really am putting everything in better perspective. These are only frying pans. What is, really, the big deal.
Ego is the big deal.
Because something is of personal importance to me doesn't mean it is worth being annoyed about. Nothing has to interfere with my joy along the way.
Comments
Could we have left your frying pans at the house or on the porch? I don't remember them. I still have your stainless steel pan... Love, Dianita
I think the pans are at Jacqueline's.
One Love
Gloria, how true this is!
You said it so well - "nothing has to interfere with my joy along the way"
I have been letting things interfere with my joy, because my ego is annoyed.
And today's Heavenletter really hit home. So often this happens - we make plans, have ideas, and life decides to change it.
Perhaps that is where the saying "Let the water roll off your back like a duck"
But, good news for you. It sounds as though a few others may know where your pans are.
in love & light,
Lynda
Whatever pettiness makes itself known to you, you are not pettiness. You are Greatness. Ah, but you are Greatness in disguise. Pettiness can only be a disguise. So good is your disguise that you have disguised yourself even from yourself. You think this imposter is really who you are. What a joke you have played on yourself.
HEAVEN #3639
Does anyone know where our dear Heaven scribe is?
Gloria is having some difficulty connecting to the internet, but expects to have it fixed soon.
Gloria,I have just discovered your blog, and the more I read the more I feel like someone who has found a dollar bill which turns out to be a five instead of a one. Thank you for being so open and honest about your life and your relationships, especially with God. I feel that I have found a new friend.
Marla