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Patterns Are Changing

 Lately I am noticing some small changes. These changes are coming by themselves.   I may have desired these changes for years and years, and it may be that they are really happening, but definitely not from discipline. Too soon to know that they're here to stay, but they do seem to indicate a trend.

For example, my sleep patterns seem to be changing.

I used to wake up anytime between 12 a.m. and 3 a.m. and not be able to get back to sleep, so I would come down and do Godwriting and all. Most of the time, after four or five hours at the computer, I would go back to sleep.

Lately, what's been happening is that I still wake up very early several times, but I'm able to get right back to sleep. Do you have any idea how wonderful this is!

One morning I slept until 4:30 a.m. Several mornings I've slept until 5 a.m., 5:30, 6:30,  and once until 7. I feel so fortunate.

My eating habits may be changing as well.

None of this is planned, you understand, though if I could plan it, I would.

It used to be I would get ravenous at night. Typically, I don't eat breakfast -- I'm too involved in Heavenletters to even think about it. I would have a good lunch, often late, two or three. But no matter what, I would be ravenous at night.

Lately there have been quite a few times when I have absolutely no desire to eat anything at night.

Today for lunch, for instance, I made a stir fry of summer squash, tomatoes, basil, pea pods, and panir. I ate a good amount. But tonight, instead of wanting to eat everything in sight, I've had no desire to eat.

There is another pattern as well that seems to be changing.  At those nights when I just can't focus on the computer any longer,  I would tend to watch a good movie on TV.  Now I find I'm not so content to watch a movie. So, of at those times now, I prefer to read light fiction or just go to bed early.

I am crossing my fingers that these changes continue.

What are you noticing in your life?

P.S. Alas, this Thursday morning as I post this, I was up at 2:45 a.m.,  and couldn't get back to sleep. :)

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Jack van Raders
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I sleep like a log till my prostate tells me to go to the bathroom, back to bed and asleep most times within minutes If not I get up and enjoy reading what my friends send me, sometimes I go back after a few hrs and sleep but always awake at day break. The best time of the day. Eating habits have not changed much as I do not eat out of habit and change day to day. but every day is better than the previous one Thank you GOD LOVE LIGHT and have FUN Jack

Jochen
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I usually sleep very well, and I can eat whatever I want at any time of the day or night and still stay as wiry as I have always been. But I sure know what you mean. The beautiful thing about your story, Señora, is in the fact that "changes are coming by themselves" and "none if this is planned". In other words, none of this comes from systematic efforts of self-improvement. I have been feeling for many years that self-improvement and all the cleverness, calculations and distrust it trails is not worthy of a child of God. "Seek ye first....."

I too cross my fingers for you and me and all of us that innocence and not smartness will be the star we follow.

Innocence and Good Will
Heavenletter # 2531 Published on: October 30, 2007

God said:
You were always told to be smart. I want to tell you that it is not always wise to be smart.

The opposite of smart might be innocent. Choose innocence. It is better not to know everything, beloveds. It is better to not know all the angles. It is better not to calculate. It is better to come from openness rather than closedness. When you are smart, you presuppose. When you are innocent, you see things as they are. As one who is clever, you look to protect yourself. As one who is not clever, you simply see and hear.....
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What am I noticing in my life? I notice that I am free to resent less or not at all. I notice I'm not feeling quite as helpless any more. And I'm very curious to see what will become of things that normally are filed under "Something should be done about this". I bravely resist the periodical impulse to do something about smoking and things of that kind.

Ah, sleep! So lovely.

Sally
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An ongoing change for me over the last couple of years is that I have lost much of my past ability to express myself through words. The words to relate what I am thinking just won't seem to come to me. My son is here visiting from Michigan and he mentioned that he has been having this problem. (I had not told him about my phenomenon.) Like I told my son, I think this must be a good thing, not a problem at all. With it a lot of useless thinking is gone too. Maybe a sign that we are becoming more of a human being and less of a human doing! I like the feeling of observing what goes on around me with no need to form an opinion about it.

Jo
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I love this post, Gloria. Lately my eating habits seem to be changing for the good "on their own", too. Like magic! And I am a major "foodie". And Jochen, I find that I'm much slower to take offense or resent. Sally, I find much less "satisfaction" in explaining myself with words, too. As a matter of fact explaining feels like a coping mechanism of the ego these days. I so agree with what you're saying, Sally. Mere words simply cannot do justice to the wonderfulness of being. And I used to believe that if I couldn't articulate something, it wasn't valid or true. Now I know that the most beautiful, meaningful things in the universe cannot be articualted.

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