I try and try to love everyone no matter what. I'm good at trying, but trying to love isn't the same as loving. This is kind of an essay in which I'm trying to understand what love really is. It may be boring -- all this thinking -- and you don't have to read it.
I suspect that the Great Ones God speaks of did not try to be all-loving. They didn't look at themselves one day and say: "And, now, no matter what, I am going to love everyone, the beggars, the lepers etc."
They were at that place where they saw God's light everywhere in everyone. In that sense, they didn't deserve a medal. They were who they were. Just the way their eyes were blue or brown, they loved. They didn't just love this one and not that one. They just loved. They were the love they shone. Their love wasn't effort. Their love was authentic.
They were simple instruments of God. They served God. Serving God was their focus. Their focus wasn't on being all-loving. And so in serving God, their individual distinctions and preferences fell by the wayside, and they emerged as the Great Ones they were and whom we ourselves are now able to love without trying to.
We might say, even in this, that they deserve our love. By their very being, they deserve it. And, yet, when we think someone is deserving of our love, we are also signifying that someone else is not deserving of our love. And, yet, what is it exactly that we are loving when we love the Great Ones? Is it that their names now that carry the high vibration of the very Beingness they lived?
I can assume that I did not know Buddha or Mohammed or Christ anymore than I knew Napoleon, and yet I feel love for Buddha and Mohammed and Christ, and I don't feel love for Napoleon. I ask again, is it the name itself that vibrates great love or, in the case of Napoleon, the name that does not?
That seems to bring me to more questions. Is love the same as appreciation? Appreciation must be a component of love, and yet appreciation isn't the whole of love.
Is gratitude the same as love? That's closer. I have a feeling that God in Heavenletters may have said that gratitude is love, or maybe He said we don't have love without gratitude -- I just found the Heavenletter. It's coming out in a week or so. It's called You Are Part of the Grand Design.
Love itself carries a great component of gratitude. Perhaps love is gratitude, gratitude lighted up, gratitude on all four burners.
Can there be love without gratitude? In any case, with love and gratitude, there is a realization of value. Oh, beloveds, the value of valuing. It is invaluable.
I understand that God is love. God is All That Is, so when I feel love for a Great One, is it God I am loving?
And, of course, I have read that all love is of the Self.
And is there a difference between feeling love and actually loving?
I am coming to the conclusion love is as undefinable as God is, and yet I feel I know God more than I know love.
This is not the blog entry I thought I was going to write. And now I think I'd better stop.