Wait for Me, Argentina

It won't be easy, you'll think it strange

When I try to explain how I feel

I had to let it happen, I had to change

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[from the lyrics of Argentina, Don't Cry for Me]

How many times did I hear the word Argentina sung in that song. Was Argentina getting into my bloodstream? All the times I heard it, I had no idea that I would one day make  Argentina my home.

Many things in my life have been a surprise to me. The most notable being Heavenletters™.

I can only conclude that we have dreams that we are not conscious of.  And the dreams we didn't know we had come true and then we know how much we wanted them, even when we were not aware.   At the same time, it seems to me that what comes true is beyond any dream we could ever have dreamed.

Heavenletters had already happened without my participation, it seems. An Unseen Hand had moved my hand.  I still marvel at this. And then I was hooked, and there is no turning back.

If anyone had told me ahead of time about Heavenletters and all that would come from them, I wouldn't have believed it. If the Heavenletter journey had been laid out for me, and I was told in advance what it would mean, I might have turned away, for I would not have thought myself capable, and I would have hesitated about taking on the responsibility.

I wasn't told in advance, or, at least, I didn't hear. However, before my eyes were opened, the die was cast, and the choice stage was over. Now it is a given. And I count my lucky stars.

Then Heaven Admin entered. What a surprise! Little did I know the significant role he would play in Heavenletters and how he would change my life. Did you know, Senor?

Little did I know that Heaven Admin had the dream of building spiritual centres across the world. This was not really Heaven Admin's personal dream, you understand. It was handed to him, pretty much the way Heavenletters seem to have been handed to me even as, deep down, I wanted them too.

Senor, did you know ahead of time that you would offer me a place in one of your centers -- in the location of my choice? You offered South Africa, Romania, and Argentina. Did you know you would be offering me this?

Without a minute's hesitation, I chose Argentina.

That is interesting because pretty much I defer decisions. I surprised myself with my decisiveness.

And yet I have never wavered from this decision to go to Argentina.

I have also long thought that we don't really make decisions about our lives. It's like the choice chooses us, and we discover what choice has already been made.

I not only surprised myself on my decisiveness, I surprised myself that I was suddenly desirous of letting go, letting go of all that I was used to, letting  go of my daughter, letting go of the land where I was born, letting go of my entire past , including china cups and napkin rings!

I can see now that I had been yearning for Heavenletters all my life. But for Argentina, I don't see the foreshadowing there. I had studied German and French in high school and hadn't given a thought to learning Spanish.

And yet when Heaven Admin suggested three locations, I knew without hesitation that Argentina was for me. Not that I wouldn't love to go to South Africa -- and I have been blessed to visit the storybook land of Romania.

I like to think Argentina is my destiny. I don't know what else to make of it.

Oh, I did just remember a tiny connection to South America.

When I was practice-teaching in the Waldorf School in Sacramento, California, so many many years ago, we were studying South America. I remember studying the foods!  I know I brought in yerba mate tea.

But, anyway, that's hardly enough to go on. Let me add one further clue, however! Daily Heavenletters have been automatically sent out from Argentina for years now, thanks to Heaven Admin! I have also heard here and there that South America is becoming the spiritual center of the world!

Getting back to the Oneness Journey and its destination, Capilla del Monte, Argentina.

You must know that you, Heavenreaders, are a special breed! You have gone beyond the ordinary and understood. At least, I've thought so!

Local response to my move (and my responses) were:

Have you ever been there?

Nope.

Why would you move there?

I want to.

Well, you can always come back.

Why would I want to do that?

I am sure there were those who thought but didn't say: "Does Gloria really think that some wonderful man from Argentina is going to pick her up in a motor home and take her to some mountain in Argentina!" I imagine they shook their heads.

I can just imagine what my brother Sid would have said! My whole family really -- except for my father who would have been 100% behind me.

But it happens to be true. A wonderful gifted individual, a citizen of the world, is going to pick me up in a motor home and take me to a mountain in Argentina. Wow, isn't that some kind of dream -- to have a beautiful soul come whisk me off in a motor home! Sometimes I can hardly believe my good fortune.

I love new cultures. I love the openness, the warmth and friendliness of other cultures. I love contrast. I love the very clear opportunity to grow. I love that I am totally willing to upturn my life and start over in a land full of bright colors and birds singing.

Where I live now is pleasant and fairly easy-going, and yet I feel I've been here long enough. I would not feel happy to spend the rest of my life here. It feels too ordinary to me.  The only challenge I feel living here is with the sameness. I want adventure!

The motor home trip will be its own thing. Constant travel, giving Godwriting™ workshops, seeing dear friends along the way and meeting new ones -- maybe even you!

There is also the thrill of being together with Heaven Admin and working on projects such as an online Godwriting workshop.

At the same time, I expect my life in Capilla del Monte to be much like it is now with Heavenletters in the forefront. And I would very much like to help Heaven Admin with the spiritual centers in any way I can.

I have some trepidation about learning Spanish, liters, Celsius temperature. But learn I will.

And when it really sinks in that I will have left my daughter and all the other people here I have known for so long and will also have left behind the old Gloria as well, I imagine that there will be some sniffling and tears. And yet I will come to the place where I will know, as God tells us, there is no distance.

So, for now when Lauren, Jacqueline, and I go for our two-mile walk and the weather is too hot or too cold, at least one of us always says: "It's not like this in Capilla del Monte." And when it is perfect weather here, one of us is sure to say: "Now, this is Capilla del Monte weather!"

It won't be easy, you'll think it strange

When I try to explain how I feel

I had to let it happen, I had to change