Why one and not another
I am noticing that I give more direct responses than I used to. Pretty much now I say Yes or No without beating around the bush. I do not hem and haw.
In years past, I myself didn't always know what I thought, and if I knew, I wasn't going to say what I thought. And, so, I wasn't always honest. I would pussyfoot around.
This morning I received an email from someone who disputes God right and left. I will call this person Jay, which is not his name.
Jay seems to see God as the bad guy. He can't give up. It is a year or more since I have heard from Jay, and he is still singing the same song without one variation. God doesn't know what He is doing, or, if God does know what He is doing, He is not a good God, and not one word that God says is to be believed.
This is what Jay emailed me this morning:
God is the problem, not the solution.
God is the problem?!!
Well, you can imagine what I think of that.
Please know that I am not without compassion for how Jay must see the world. Sometimes I have the feeling that Jay must want God more than all of us put together, or he wouldn't fight so hard, he wouldn't keep reading Heavenletters, and wanting something that, so far, He cannot receive, and, from Jay's point of view, God cannot give him. I wish I knew what exactly Jay does want from me or anyone else. Does he want someone else to just agree with him, and then he could move on? I am not even clear on what Jay does want from God!
With all that being said, I wrote back clearly and without hesitation:
God is not the problem.
I said a little more than that though I do wonder what else there is to say to Jay that hasn't been said and said to him many times over and which, as yet, he cannot hear.
I wonder why Jay can't let go.
I do not know what goes on in his life except that he is determined that God is not love. He is so sure what God is and is not, and yet Jay must so fervently believe in the existence of God.
I think of the Heavenreaders whose lives are filled with what we could only call tragedy and loss, sometimes extreme physical pain and injustice, and yet their hearts are filled with deep love of God, and these dear souls uplift us and raise the vibration of the world.
Why does Jay have the need to keep his spirit down and, seemingly, want to pull the rest of us down?
What makes the difference?
It can't be that Jay has not been blessed by the grace of God, and the rest of us have. I can certainly say that we have been blessed by the grace of God, but it can't be that Jay has not.
What is it that keeps Jay from giving God some mercy?
Comments
It seems to me, Gloria, that everything you have written today about “Jay” is saying he is angry at God. Very angry.
I believe that what Jay is expressing and how he is expressing it would be just fine with God and He would say that Jay should own his anger, continue to feel it and follow it where the emotions take him. The anger will be connected to the thoughts and experiences that lie beneath his surface feelings. Tracking these down and accepting them and owning them is the only way to get beyond them and only Jay can do this. Jay’s anger is a disowned part of himself that he must find and reclaim.
Jay is asking for your help, Gloria. What will not work is to respond by saying that God is love and therefore Jay should love God. Jay is not wrong! Jay is just stating his truth as he experiences it. To help him you must understand this and accept this also.
One suggestion I would have for Jay, assuming he is open to a suggestion (and the emails he is sending you indicate he is), is for Jay to take a tablet of paper and to tell God exactly what he thinks of Him and why. He should let it all hang out! God promises us we will be answered whenever we ask. Nowhere does it say we must be polite in asking.
Oh Gloria,
I couldn't let this one go, so I did a bit of Godwriting and here is what I received.
Dear God,
How should we react to someone who says "God is the problem"?
My Beloved Darling Daughter,
You and My Beloved Gloria take strong issue with this. You cannot understand how anyone can perceive Me as the problem when you see that I AM the solution. Ah, yet you searched for the answer to this puzzling question for many, many years. And now that you are secure in the knowledge that I AM the Question, the Answer and the Way you wonder why others are not secure in this knowledge too. My Beloved Child, each one comes to Me in their own way. Jay questions My existence, yet by his questions he is actually acknowledging My existence and My prominence in his life. It may bother you that his tone towards Me is derogatory, yet it does not bother Me in the least. My Son Jay is finding his way to Me through Heavenletters and other sources he continually challenges. Now this may shock you, but I AM well pleased with Jay and his progress to Me. And I AM well pleased with you too. Now go in peace My Darling Daughter and be aware that "It's all good" in My eyes.
Oh Gloria,
Maybe Jay can't give God some mercy because he's afraid to put his trust in Something/Someone he can't "see". Maybe his fear compels him to disrespect anyone who has found their own Truth in God. Maybe if we send Jay our blessings we'll light up his path so that he can "see" better!
Dear Ones, you are both absolutely right in everything you say.
Hey, I am not a saint. Neither Jay nor I gain from his complaints nor from my acceptance of them.
I gave Jay years of time, attention, and compassionate listening, and I don't want to any more. Of course, God isn't done with Jay. I am declaring that I am. Of course, Jay is free to feel as he feels, and I am too. It is my choice to love Jay from afar.
When a doctor has a patient who is a hypochondriac, for how many visits does the doctor continue to listen to the patient's list of complaints over and over again? How does that serve the patient or the doctor -- or anyone else either.
Because the doctor moves on doesn't mean that the doctor considers the patient unworthy.
If I am playing Monopoly with someone, and I want to stop, that's fine. I don't have to want to play the game any more!
Okay ... so my take is it's convenient for Jay to blame Godde as then he doesn't have to take responsibility. Chuck, it would be a great exercise for Jay to write his feelings of Godde down. Actually, he would be expressing his feelings about himself.
Gloria, there does come a time when as individuals we must say, "I don't have the means to help you" and to move on to those whom you can help. There will always be those who refuse to listen yet want to take up all your time (time and energy vampires). There's a fine line sometimes between supporting someone and being co-dependent. Since you have already spent a ocnsiderable amount of time with Jay, and still he's not ready to make a move, then, fine. Your timer has buzzed and YOU can choose to end the game.
Pam, you put it all in balance!
What would the sunflowers say when one of their own would not turn to face the sun?
Sunflowers lead by example, turning their faces to the sun to show the way. Yet if one refused and kept saying, 'but there really is no sun,' no amount of talking would convince that one sunflower. If, though, day after day after day the others who believed kept believing in the sun and following it, would the nonbeliever eventually at least look over it's shoulder to see what everyone else was looking at?