Xena (Tikva)
This is the sort of thing about that beautiful dog that somehow breaks my heart.
Yael took Tikva (Xena) with her to a farm where there were chickens running around. Yael told Tikva to lie down in a certain spot and stay there -- heck, I just have to call Xena Xena. Xena is Xena, not Tikva.
Well, Xena lay down on that spot and stayed there until Yael was ready to leave.
Not only that, the next time Yael went to that farm, Xena, immediately, without being told, went to that same spot and just lay down there.
Never was there a dog so willing to do what was wanted of her and ever so watchful and caring to please.
The last time Yael brought Xena over, Xena didn't go to either of her beddies that are still in my house. She just clung close to Yael.
When I offered Xena cheese, she didn't take it.
Oh, this letting go, why is it so hard?
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Yesterday I was having lunch with my wife in a little organic restaurant with some backyard space in the sun and shaded by trees when we saw a bumble bee landing on the empty table next to us. It sat there for a while and we noticed a strange trembling and fluttering in the whole little creature, but it didn't seem to want to crawl or to fly away again. When I went over to look, it slowly fell on its side and it became clear that it was dying there and then. We put it on a fresh leaf which we placed in a sunny spot on the ground, watching that dear little fellow for a few moments. When we got up, we both had tears in our eyes, and they were not about letting go. They were about some almost unbearable sweetness that would be hard to put into words. Something to do with this huge error of beginnings and endings, of meeting and parting, some vague knowing that things are really much much better than we were told and now tell ourselves. Perhaps we saw the eternalness of little Bumble Bee. And perhaps much of our so-called sadness is really relief.
So beautiful is your writing.
Wow, so beautiful are these writings!
Wow, so beautiful are these beings!
NEVER FORGET ALL IS BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE GOD MADE IT SO. THE THINGS THAT APPEAR NOT SO NICE IS MAN'S FREE WILL. ALL IS LOVE SO I LOVE YOU ALL. JACK
Oh yes. Thank you all.