Never ever is it worth the dismalness and loss of energy that getting upset jolts us with. I know that. Everyone knows that. There is also a world of difference between knowing and living.
This morning, not only was I upset, I was frantic.
Heaven Admin to the rescue! Thankfully, he found all the missing workshop documents in an Archive so they are not lost but very much alive and well.
This was a close call for me. Compassionate people that you are, you understand how catastrophic it was for me. It was like the end of the world. I am still shaken. Yes, of course, I know better, but knowing better and rising above a panicked state are two different stories.
Then I came across a Heavenletter that helped to balance me. I actually found this Heavenletter in all the workshop material that I thought was gone!
This Heavenletter doesn't deal directly with the difficulty of losing things, but it did bring me back to God Who Calms Down all Difficulties.
Heavenletter #438 was published on January 2, 2002. The name of this Heavenletter is Where Is God? I'm printing the entire Heavenletter here.
Remember that I am personal to you. How else can you come close to Me? Not impersonally.
That others have visited with Me is nice, but you want your own visit. That others have seen Heaven is admirable, but when is it your turn? When do you see for yourself?
You who are My thought can only think so far about Me, for I am, of course, beyond thought.
It may be hard to notice that which is always with you. I am always with you. Truly you have no contrast with which to know Me. When you think you are without Me, most likely you have been looking for an outward manifestation of Me.
You have expected me to arrive in a blinding light. You expect your whole being to be transformed and that you will never return to life as it was. You expect you will see auras and know all the answers to life and never be muddled again. Once knowing Me for yourself, you expect fulfillment of all your preconceived ideas.
Get rid of your preconceived ideas, and you will know that you know Me.
See what happens when you consider that I am always close to you rather than far away. See what happens when you consider that I am One Who gazes at you, that I am One Who longs for even a mere glance from you.
Consider Me rather than yourself.
Consider what I want, and I want you to come closer to Me. I cannot come closer to you. I am as close as close itself. But you can turn your awareness more closely to Me, and then you will begin to know Me in the very fiber of your being.
Our breaths touch. Our consciousnesses meld as in water. And then, Whom do you come to know? Me, or you?
After I read this Heavenletter:
Tomorrow I want to talk more about our God Connection.