King Midas
It used to be that I would be thrilled to have a bunch of blog entries written down ahead. The more drafts I had, the better I felt. It was my security to have blog entries written down ahead. The more blogs written ahead, the more secure I was. I took pride in accumulation.
Looking now at how I saved up blog entries, I kinda see that I was like King Midas who counted his piles of gold.
Then I got into having no blogs written ahead. And I have enjoyed that very much. More spontaneous. More trusting. More living on the edge.
Then this morning, this very morning, I couldn't think of what to write about. I was stumped. It was like my moment of truth.
Then, suddenly, an entry propelled itself and came together, and you are reading it now.
The first impulse came from an email from Lance King, heavy metallist.
http://www.NightmareRecords.com
You may remember Lance took a line from Heavenletter #3348, God Writes a Jingle.
http://www.heavenletters.org/god-makes-up-a-jingle.html
Lance entitled his song Gotta Let Go, which I later wished I had used for the title of the Heavenletter. Here is how Lance's email began:
I woke this morning and counted blessings I was thankful for, it took me quite some time before I was interrupted by my daughter, I think I could have gone all day lol.
Heavenletters™ are one of those blessings, my dear, and I am now ready for you to take the song "Gotta Let Go" and use it however you like in your quest of getting souls' attention to God's wonderful messages.
Like a butterfly I release it...
Now, Lance sent his email as a reply to Heavenletter #4181 In Your Realization of Oneness, May 6, 2012. Of course, I reread the Heavenletter and it sank in that this is where I am now.
In Oneness, you let go of your old identity. Even wonderful identity, you let go of it...Even the identity of family, you let go of. Good family, happy family, sad family, unhappy family, you let go of. Your profession, you let go of. Your wages, large or small, you let go of. Employment or unemployment, you let go of. Gender, you let go of. Age, you let go of. You might think you are being reduced to Oneness, yet all your ties on Earth assume a different position, and you are rising to Oneness...
Of course, I would describe my personal experience as a sense of lostness. As I wrote in a recent comment to Normand under yesterday's blog, I am feeling pretty much like "a stranger in a strange land."
In my personal Godwriting™ this morning, I told God my troubles, and God said:
It’s all right, Gloria. It’s all right. You are being burned in a fire right now. You are like metal being tempered. Gloria, you are losing yourself in order to find yourself. Yes, you are tempered steel. Tempered steel is stronger than iron.
I said: Thank You, God. May I be strong for You. May I not be so sensitive. May I let go of all I hold on to. May I be resilient. How do I be strong, God, and not bend.
God said:
Bend, Gloria. Bend.
And so this is the Godwriting blog entry for today.
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Comments
Who but God can give such a magnificent and comforting answer to your experience.
This sense of lostness reaches a threshold after which the mind becomes liberated from so many limiting weights. Those very same weights that were once limiting are transformed into delightful building blocks for higher experiences.
When a man sees that he is not really a man, he becomes more man that he has ever been. In mafiosa terms he becomes a made man or has made his bones.
Wonderful comment, dear One. I also think that this answer from God to Gloria is a comforting answer to all of us.
It is normal to be afraid to lose our personal identity because we apparently don't know what our real identity is. Fear of the unknown. But the real meaning of this fear is that it is used by our personal self to keep us from looking inward to Truth.
When we choose our personal identity, we choose automatically guilt, conflict, and fear because our Real Self knows it is false. It is like if our personal self is always attacking or trying to undo the Truth of what we are. So we feel guilty and think we deserve some sort of punishment. This has nothing to do with religion, it is the very fabric of the personal self.
We will never be able to remove the guilt and the fear from the personal identity nor will we ever be able to correct it or change it from within because guilt and fear are the very fabric of our identity.
The positive aspect of living the personal self or identity is that we never feel really at peace while we remain attached to it. So we have to turn in the direction of where peace can be really found.
The only way to access peace is to release the personal thought system which is expressed through our personal identity. In fact, abandoning the personal self is to put an end to conflict. That is how peace is released. Loosing yourself in order to find your real identity, your Self.
Could it be that that "abandoning the personal self" makes way for a more purer form of identity to emerge? Could individuality in it's purest form be the very essence of creativity? Could it be that this highest form of individuality (as a ray of light is to the sun) precedes the mind and all of it's cosmic wonders?
I am sure of that. This image of God with which He created each of us is indivisible yet expandable. This is a mystery, which means it is "mute", silent.
Another way to look at this is that the very thing we once floated on, albeit often being trashed around by the storms of unfulfilled wants, is dissolving into the ocean. The same thing we held onto with all our might, the fallacy of it being fundamental to our survival, fades away leaving the liberating discovery of our Beloved, The Ocean.