I have been on pins and needles all this time so eager have I been to hear that I am privileged to return to South Africa and stay. All this time I have not heard a word, and I have been very anxious. All possible scenarios have played out before me.
I had heard that it takes five to six DAYS for an application to be approved, and I have been waiting three WEEKS! Felt like forever that I have been in limbo, simply not knowing and fearing the worst. Now, Jack, I know what you're going to say!
Interestingly, I came across this Heavenletter this morning!
There is no telling what tomorrow will bring. Have the idea, which is an intention, that tomorrow will bring you everything you want. Would you rather spend your thoughts on the nebulous unwanted things that tomorrow could bring? What is the gain? Do you know that, when you are negative, you are making a sourpuss of your mind? God forbid.
Heavenletter #3852 Why Would You? Published on: June 12, 2011 http://www.heavenletters.org/why-would-you.html
In response to a recent personal question that someone asked through Heavenletters™, God said:
Ptooey on your fears!
I love how God says things!
I have been quiet about my visa anxiety on this blog because I did not want to share my anxiety, and I did not want my anxiety to be reflected back to me either.
Of course, I know that my whole life is not dependent upon where I happen to be situated physically, and, yet, it felt so strong that I am to be in South Africa, and it has been such a struggle. I am aware now how I have made this process such a struggle. I had an insight about my responsibility which I'll tell you more about in another blog entry.
But, for now, please know I had called the Consulate three times, got an answering machine, and never heard back! This spelled rejection.
Finally, happy day, Heaven Admin called the Consulate, and he reached the dear person who has been working on my visa, and she told him:
Mrs. Wendroff has been granted a sabbatical visa, and it is in the mail!
Furthermore, Heaven Admin wrote to me:
South Africa, Palm Beach and I await you with open arms!
Is this not wonderful? Could it be more wonderful? Thank You, God.
Now, why did I call this blog entry Object Permanence? Object permanence is something we develop. A young child does not have object permanence. To a young child, he sees his toy in front of him. Yet if a box were put over his toy, the young child will no longer know that his toy is there. This is probably why children like Peek-a-boo so much! To them, it's a magic trick!
I called this blog entry Object Permanence because I have to see my passport and the sabbatical visa in front of me before I can allow myself the full 100% certainty of joy. Unless I see it, how do I know for sure?!!!
Just you wait, when I have the visa in front of me, then I will celebrate the visa in this blog with color and balloons!