Object Permanence
I have been on pins and needles all this time so eager have I been to hear that I am privileged to return to South Africa and stay. All this time I have not heard a word, and I have been very anxious. All possible scenarios have played out before me.
I had heard that it takes five to six DAYS for an application to be approved, and I have been waiting three WEEKS! Felt like forever that I have been in limbo, simply not knowing and fearing the worst. Now, Jack, I know what you're going to say!
Interestingly, I came across this Heavenletter this morning!
God said:
There is no telling what tomorrow will bring. Have the idea, which is an intention, that tomorrow will bring you everything you want. Would you rather spend your thoughts on the nebulous unwanted things that tomorrow could bring? What is the gain? Do you know that, when you are negative, you are making a sourpuss of your mind? God forbid.
Heavenletter #3852 Why Would You? Published on: June 12, 2011 http://www.heavenletters.org/why-would-you.html
In response to a recent personal question that someone asked through Heavenletters™, God said:
Ptooey on your fears!
I love how God says things!
I have been quiet about my visa anxiety on this blog because I did not want to share my anxiety, and I did not want my anxiety to be reflected back to me either.
Of course, I know that my whole life is not dependent upon where I happen to be situated physically, and, yet, it felt so strong that I am to be in South Africa, and it has been such a struggle. I am aware now how I have made this process such a struggle. I had an insight about my responsibility which I'll tell you more about in another blog entry.
But, for now, please know I had called the Consulate three times, got an answering machine, and never heard back! This spelled rejection.
Finally, happy day, Heaven Admin called the Consulate, and he reached the dear person who has been working on my visa, and she told him:
Mrs. Wendroff has been granted a sabbatical visa, and it is in the mail!
Woo-hoo!
Furthermore, Heaven Admin wrote to me:
South Africa, Palm Beach and I await you with open arms!
Is this not wonderful? Could it be more wonderful? Thank You, God.
Now, why did I call this blog entry Object Permanence? Object permanence is something we develop. A young child does not have object permanence. To a young child, he sees his toy in front of him. Yet if a box were put over his toy, the young child will no longer know that his toy is there. This is probably why children like Peek-a-boo so much! To them, it's a magic trick!
I called this blog entry Object Permanence because I have to see my passport and the sabbatical visa in front of me before I can allow myself the full 100% certainty of joy. Unless I see it, how do I know for sure?!!!
Just you wait, when I have the visa in front of me, then I will celebrate the visa in this blog with color and balloons!
Comments
Whoopee!!
Gloria Dear, I am happy for you and what is more, you will be closer to Oz in Africa, than some where in cold Chicago. Although I am sure Laurens love keeps you warm. How will the young kittens fair, without their Grandma? You Know of course, you are leaving the start of summer In the USA and going into winter in Africa. Here it is cooling already. Sitting at my comouter with my winter jumper on at 6 am and still dark. I would not want to leave here though. So Peaceful. See you next on the Blog. Love Jack
Congratulations! When are you going back?
I am very happy it went so fast, after all, beloved Gloria. Since your return to USA we felt you had left your heart in Palm Beach.
Every time I walk on the beach in Perth, I think of you walking along the beach on the other shore of the big pond, the Indian Ocean and we are waving at each other. It's gone be real again!
And remember, Jack, to think about meeting at midpoint between Perth and Townsville/Cairns, that is in Uluru.
Dear Friends,
God bless you for all your support! It's wonderful.
Jacqueline, I won't leave before I see you in Fairfield!
Jack, yes the kitties will miss their full-time nanny! But winter at Palm Beach in South Africa, is still lovely and warm, so I understand! Not necessary to turn on heat! How cold does it get where you are?
Joyce, whoopee is good!
Normand, oh, yes, we shall wave hello across the Indian Ocean!
Dear Gloria, I am so thrilled for you. Isn't life funny? And we, who worry, even funnier? I can almost hear God laughing! Bon Voyage, dear friend! Love, Barb
There is a saying Gloria, " believe it, and you will see it."
I believe these life lessons come to us so that we still are in awe of the miracles when they appear.
I can imagine it is a true test, when you sit in the apartment in Chicago.. imagining the beach in South Africa. So what is really reality? What we think we see? Or, what our imagination and God's love envisions for us?
I experience this every day. My reality (or so I feel) really isn't what I imagine is to happen. And it takes bringing my mind and thoughts and feelings back to all that is possible, many times a day. Perhaps it comes down to trusting in what God knows is meant to be.
Beloved Lynda, we are often on the same page!! We do indeed reflect each other. Thanks, kid!