Well, Jack, here is a new blog entry
Jack, you asked for a new blog, and I'm not sure what to say or where to begin.
In one sense, it doesn't feel any different to be on U.S. soil as it did to be on the rich earth of South Africa. At the same time, I feel adrift in an ocean and am not sure where the tide is taking me. It would seem that I was supposed to leave South Africa when I did, or, from Immigration's point of view, sooner. I feel like I was drafted. I sure didn't volunteer to leave.
I have heard that we are always where we're supposed to be. It is beautiful here and I am so glad to be with my daughter and Teeny and Bujo. At the same time, to be here, means I am not there, and I am saddened not to be there.
God in Heavenletters™ has mentioned questions we often have such as:
Who am I? Where am I? Where do I belong? What's going on?
And so, even though a recent Heavenletter says that there is no between, I am feeling, well, very betwixt and between.
When I wrote my resume for my application for a South African sabbatical visa, from the distance of time and space, I could see that my life had been orchestrated. I didn't see it at the time, but now I do. It is like my whole life was laid out for me, as though I was following a certain precise flute music. Are our lives orchestrated?
If so, what song is the flute playing now, and where does it lead?
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If the flute player is the One who I think it is, then the song can only be love and it leads to more love.
And I would add: you wrote the tune a long time ago (probably before you landed on this playground called Earth) and you are playing the tune you wrote and you choose the way you want it to sound.
Dear One, I love how you expressed this !! and I love the fluteplayer !!
One and Berit, you mean Krishna?
That One goes by many names!
:-))
"If so, what song is the flute playing now, and where does it lead?"
Do you remember, dear Gloria, who wrote that song?
My interpretation of what you say (and, of course, it is my interpretation) is that there is something in living for a while in a different country (that you like, of course) is symbolic of living in everythingness and nothingness. You live there but you belong to something vaster, without frontier, without culture. You feel that you are above (not cut out, though, from reality) in a sort of neutral state.
I would say the same as you do :"In one sense, it doesn't feel any different to be on Cananda. soil as it did to be on that really special land down under, that is Australia). I could adapt very easily to live back in Canada. But do I feel that I want it? No. I would feel adrift. For one main reason, I love to feel a "stranger" in a country and, at the same time, to feel "part" of the country. It is like living in spaceless and timeless Heaven and, at the same time, living in a specific time and place on Earth.
And if you feel as I do, I feel closer to myself living abroad than in my country of origin.
Beloved Normand, what you say about spaceless and timeless rings true. it seems to me that the draw I feel for South Africa is very deep, that I am meant to be there, my destiny. I could be kidding myself, of course, yet this feels to me that is more than my individual preference. But, of course, I will take it as it comes.
Of course, I feel you are closer to me when we can stretch our arm between (even if there is no between!) Palm Beach and Perth across that little pond called the Indian Ocean.
I meant: it doesn't feel any different to be on Canadian soil…"
Well here you are in Chicago with your lovely Daughter and the kittens. All is well whereever you are. I mentioned it before "Not my will, etc." Gloria and Norman I am happy were I am here in warm Australia, Canada is to cold, for my liking,even beautiful N.Zealand was to cold. But on the other hand. I am happy where ever I am. Gloria S.Africa wa a beautiful experience for you. Be thankful, wich I am sure you are. Now leave it to God, to determine where you go next. IF YOU GO !!!
I have found in the last few years, There are so many nice people but they do not make the news, as yet. That will change to. Mieke and I tried to go to visit SW of western Australia but as we can not hire a car anymore we decided to make short visits around here in our own car. next week we go for a few days to Cedar park resort right in the rainforrest and only about an hour away from home. We have found that whenever we went on holydays,getting back home was the best. So here we stay,as this is where God put us so we enjoy all the love we meet. Love you all and I stop ranting in the middle of the night and go back to bed Love Jack
One, that was a beautiful sentence!
And Gloria, I agree with Normand.. it is the vastness of the universe you feel.
I have never lived abroad but I can imagine it is surreal. Especially in the setting you are, and the loving family.
Hi Gloria,
Welcome back. I have avidly been following your
adventures.
love to you and lauren
Hi Gloria,
Welcome back.
i've been following your adventures and enjoying it all.
Love to you and Lauren.
Dear Sandra, do you have any idea of how happy I am to hear from you!
Sandra and I taught school together. I stood up for Sandra when she and David married.
Sandra knew Lauren as a little girl!
LOving you, dear Sandra.
Gloria, you ask a very soulful question: Is it all orchestrated? That is a wonderful question and important to contemplate. It seems to me that it may be that the answer is both yes and no. We do have guidance from deep within us. I see them as nudgings in the direction our soul wants us to go. We also are impacted from outside of us by forces we have no understanding of. I see them as pressures exerted on us by the universe. But in the end, we have our own choices to make. We can yield to our intuition or we can oppose it. We can appreciate what the universe offers us or we can bemoan it. In the end, though, it doesn't seem to really matter what we choose, so why not make our choices truly ours and enjoy the wonders life will surely bring us? I love hearing of your choices. You provide a wonderful example of how it is done artfully.
Chuck
If we came down on Earth with a contract, we came also with the power to change that contract, from a karmic one to a creative one, a new-potentialities one. After all, a scenario being a scenario, we can change it. Don't artists tear off their painting and start new ones? Don't writers burn their manuscripts and write new ones?
Karmic to Creative! That is such an awesome way of looking at it.
I guess, dear One, that it needs a little explanation, explanation that you surely already know since you have an Indian background. In the "old energy", individual spiritual evolution seemed to go very slowly, following the karmic pattern that you had to reincarnate so many times in order to learn your lesson. It was the cycle of reincarnation. Karma was not connected to "what you think" but what you had to follow. It was a classroom for primary, secondary and undergraduate school.
In the new energy or collective consciousness, we now understand better that "what you do comes from what you think". We behave more like "graduate students" and we can choose our own curriculum. The experience is not imposed on us as a karma but as potentialities. We can choose our destiny (even if our basic contract to go back to God remains unchanged) or the way we want to accomplish it. We discover we have the power to recalibrate our energy and reconfigurate at will the path of our destiny.
Instead of teaching after learning (from somebody else, a master of some sort), you have to teach yourself and the other what you want to learn. Yet I must admit that, in that respect, our scholar system is still in the old energy pattern of thinking.
Chuck and Normand, how you add to my self-discovery!
Dear Gloria, what do you think you do by delivering us daily Heavenletters? Certainly collective self-discovery.
Well, my friend, I join you in your slight sadness at not being where the "other" resides. I am in the same sad and wistful state, knowing I lose a friend who is moving to Australia, south of Perth. I have been heaving sad sighs and letting the feelings pass through me. Both sides of the coin make up our world - the joyful laughter and the sad sigh - holding them together, embracing both as they arise, makes us the One.